because, like jill said earlier on, neither one of us had faith. we really didn't know which way to turn. when jill came to faith, after our son was diagnosed and we started having our struggles, i saw what was in jill and early on, it was pretty much tearing part, the closer jill got to her faith, the farther i got away with it. but i realized i was losing everything i loved, everything i was working for. if i didn't humble myself to admit my faults. here's a guy that everybody looks up to, as far as playing football, i had to realize in my own mind that i had to get on my knees and understand that i was making mistakes. thank god that i was able to admit them. there are a lot of men out there, men, humble yourself enough. whether it's your marriage, your family, whatever the case may be, you have to be able to step up and man up and understand that -- that there is better things ahead.